November 9th, 2009   

Yeh un dino ke baat hai jab mai inter kar k farigh hua tha merymaali haalat itnay achay nahi thay k phir agay mai parhai ko continue rakhsakta, so relatives ke help se mujhe aik chotay se software house me trainingkarnay ka mauqa mil gaya, but un-fortunately kafi arsay se wahan kam nahi araha tha to wahan jo owner thay unka plan tha k wo software house ko band karden aur phir dubai chalay jayen.Wahan unho ne tamam programmers se baat ke to sab ne yahikaha k Pakistan ke market aisi nahi hai ab k yahan itni asani se kam milaybehter yahi hai k ape s software house ko ab khatm kar den.

So unho ne finally decide kar liya k wo sara setup windupkar k chalay jayengay….. aik din wo akalay baithay thay mai unkay pass gaya…..maine kaha sir ap yeh setup khatam kar rahay han… bolay haan raheel beta dekhoyahan kam a nahi raha 20,000 rent hai phir electric bill aur baqi expensesitnay han k kaisy puray hon, maine to chaha tah k kaam chal jaye per mumkinnahi lagta…… maine kaha sir ap mujhe aik chance den gay? Wo hanstay hue bolaybeta kaisa chance?……. maine kaha sir dekhen aj kal internet café bahut chalrahay han……. Ham aisa kartay han k setup to hamary pass complete hai esko haminternet café me convert kar detay han, hamary pass cabins nahi han to familiesbhi ayenge aur jo truly internet users hotay han wo hi ayengay….  Aur sir dekhen sham me ham classes start kardetay han board laga dengay students ayengay parhnay k lye.. ham courseskarwatay han…. Aur sath me software ka koi kam mila to wo bhi kar lengay aursir dekhen ap ko to windup kar k dubai jana hi hai na… to sir dubai ja kar apwahan se kam pakar lejye ga aur ham yahan kar k dengay…… wo muskuraye aur bolayacha… yeh sab karay ga kon? Maine kaha sir mai mehnat karonga mai pura waqtdonga mai esko as challenge accept karonga agar ap mauqa den…

Aur wo agree ho gaye flat k nechay shops then aur un shopsme aik shop walay sahib boss k dost thay unho ne unko bola k dekho yeh Raheelko mai incharge bana k jar aha hon ….

Ab mery nazdek yeh waqt aisa hi tha jaisay ya to sab kuchban jaye gay a sab khatam ho jaye ga… maine din raat koshish shuru kar de k kistarha mai kaam ko chala sakon, masjid k bahar pamphlets bantay, stickerslagwaye coaching center s k bahar …… gharz yeh k inter pass 17 saal ka aiklarka din raat mehnat karnay laga ……

Kehtay han na kay mehnat kabhi raigan nahi jate……Allah nemeri mehnat ka phal dena shuru kiya aur hame café aur phir institute dono me hikamyabi hona shuru ho gaye…

Kuch arsay baad hamary yahan aik larki aye jisko basiccomputer seekhna tha… jisme MS office, internet waghaira sahmil tha… na janay kyatha usme… kya kashish thi…… kya naqsh thay… kya ada thi…. Kya rang kya dhang ……..uske jadoo bhari ankhen……. Uske ghanay baal…. Uskey hont…… sab kuch mujh jaisy ……yani mujh jaisy career loving… shaks jiska maqsad hi uska career tha …… usperbhi havi ho gaye …… na chahtay hue bhi mujhe uske kashish ne apni janib khenchliya……… aur phir wo rooz ati gaye …. Usko mai khud hi parhata tha mery cabin memai usko parhata tha….. mujhe us se pyar ho gaya tha……. Magar us pyar ko maineapnay profession k darmiyan nahi anay diya…… har waqt apnay apko yahi samjhatatha…… Raheel you are professional… aur pyar kabhi bhi profession k bech me nahiana chahiye …… profession me dil , jazbat, ehsasat koi ahmiyat nahi rakhtay………profession me sirf business ahmiyat rakhta hai……… aur ….. wo teri student hai …….Kya tujhe sharam nahi aye ge??? Teaching jaisy profession ko badnam kartayhue???? Kya tujhe sharam nahi aye ge??? Jis boss ne tujh pe itna trust kiya haiuskay trust ko apni mohabat k agay khak me milatay hue???……..aur aine kasochay ge…… abhi wo teri respect karti hai …… kal ko kya sochay ge…… tu ne kisneyat se usko parhaya? Raheel tu apni hi nazro me gir jaye ga…….. tu aisidaldal me gir jaye ga jahan se uth nahi sakay ga kabhi…….. jazbat ko khatam kar…….Aur sun jo tery naseb me hai usko koi tujhse chen nahi sakta…… aur jo teri nahihai usko tujhse koi mila nahi sakta….. apnay kaam pe dehan day……. Tu uskay laiqbhi nahi hai….. inter pass tera future kya hai?? Kya karta hai tu? Aik teacherjiske salary bhi sirf 3000 hai?? Kya karay ga?? Kya tujhe agay nahi barhna??? Kyatujhe apnay khuwabon ko nahi hasil karna??? Kya tu bhi un logo me se honachahta hai jinko    ”Ishq ne nikamma kardiya”???

Suno Raheel… aine tumhari nahi hai.. us khuwab k  pechay mat bhago…

Kisay khabar kahan milengay

Damakta chehra chamakti ankhen…

Sama’aten dhundhti rahen ge

Shagufta lehje haseen baaten….

Yahi hai rasm-e-jahan aziizo…

Kay chand lamhon ko ham safar ho…

Nah phir tumhari hame khabar ho…

Na phir hamari tumhe khabar ho….

Sab kuch sochnay k baad maine faisla kiya k mujhe apnayjazbaat ko dil me hi chupa k rakhna hai…….. wo rooz ati mai usko parhataa ………..magar kya karta? Tha to insane hi na? ……….. mery senay me bhi dil tha na….. nachahtay hue bhi uske ankhon me wo kashish thi…….. mai uske janib khancha chalaata tha…… uskay samnay na kuch kehta na kuch izhar karta ……. Mai wo filmi styleme pagalon ke tarha usko dekhta bhi na rehta……. Ankhen jhuka kar ya to uskosamjhata ya phir apni nigahen computer screen per rakh kar usko samjhata rehta……

Ahista ahista wo khud bhi mery qareb ati gaye… apnayassignments me mujhse help leti aur mai computer graphics me expert tha eslyemai uskay assignments ko nikhaar deta jis per uske class me uske bari tareefhote aur wo khushi se mujhe a kar batati uske khushi hi meri khushi thi……

Mai apnay career per puri tawajah day raha tha….. farighwaqt me bas usko hi sochta tha usko hi khayalon me dekhta tha……. Aur bas yehsochta tha k kis tarha uske tawajah hasil karon, kis tarha uskay demagh merahon……..

Aur sath me usko khonay ka dar bhi rehta tha…… 3 months hogaye han……. 4 months ka uska course tha bas ab aik mahena baqi reh gaya… maiaksar sochta tha wo nahi hoge to kya hoga……. Mai us kay bina kaisy rahonga… kyakaronga…….

Phir kuch dair baad boss ka dubai se phone aya….. wo bahutkhush thay….. bolnay laga Raheel tumne bahut zabardast kam kiya hai….. maitumse bahut khush hon……. Mujhe bhi yeh sun kar bahut khushi hue….. bolnay lagak jo mera business doob gaya tha tumne usko sanbhala hai….. aj yeh jo officehai jis position per hai usme tumhara bahut bara hath hai…… aur mujhe khushihai k tum es office ko yahan tak laye ho……. Aur suno ….. wo.. jo shop per merydost han …… unho ne baat ke hai mujhe bahut achay paisy milay han runningbusiness ko sell karnay ka….. tum aaj jatay hue unko key day dena office ke aurhaan aj to 10 hai phir bhi mai tumhe puray month ke salary day raha hon yanitumhary 10 din k 1000 bantay han lekin tumhari mehnat ke wajah se mai tumhepuray 3000 day raha hon…. Tum bahut sincere larkay ho insahAllah agay abhut kamyabhoggay…….

Meri ankhon me ansoo thay…….. mera career……. Meri mehnat………meri sari koshish…….. dil phoot phoot k andar se roo raha tha…… dil kah rahatha nahiiiiii yeh nahiiiii ho sakta……. Mery saath aisa kyon……. Haan??? Aye Allahtum to 70 ma’on se ziada chahtay ho apnay bandon ko …….. mery sath aisa kaisykar saktay ho ap??? Dil o demagh me phir jang se shuru ho gaye……. Demagh bola …..Raheel bhol gaye wo professionalism? Haan what the hell? Wo professionalismkahan gaya???? Business me koi jazbat koi ahsas nahi hota?? Haan kahan gayen wobaaten?? Tu ne koshish ke bcoz tu selfish that u ne apnay liye  apni life k lye agay barhnay k lye career bananak lye koshish ke…… boss ne business sell kiya q k unko faida tha… to ab ronakis baat ka???

Aik taraf jis jagha ko apna khuwab bana kar din raat mehnatke… jaisy kisi ke zindagi ka aaim cheen liya gaya ho… phir aaj ainee aye…mainjanta tha wo meri achi dost hai itni problems me wo hi aik hai jo mery es waqtme tasalli k do lafz bolay ge.

Maine usko bataya….. sir.. mai to apke problems samhaj rahihon.. per….. mery abu ami to bolengay k ap fees ……….. maine kaha aray aineeghabrao nahi ….. tumhari 1 month ke fee to mai refund kar donga…… mai muskura kus se bola….

Jo 3000 mujhe milay thay usme se maine phir ainee ko 1200rupe wapas kar diye aur kaha ainee apnay father ko day dena aur bata dena kinstitute ke management change ho gaye hai, baqi agar tum yahan continue karoto dosry techers hongay wo tumhe continue karwa lengay tum unhe yeh fee day karcontinue kar sako ge ….

Boli sir…..mai to ap se parh rahi thi…….. phir mery courseka kya hoga… mujhe internet seekhna tha….. imran ko maine bataya hai k 1 monthme mai internet seekh jaonge….. yeh imran kon ainee?

Sir wo mera cousin hai…… ham dono bachpan se aik dosry kopasand kartay han….. wo USA me hai ham baat bahut hi kam kar patay han….. maineusko bataya tha k mai internet seekh kar us se baat kar sakonge internet per……

Hmmmm….. suno mery pass aaj ka pura din hai ….. mai tumhecomplete notes provide kar donga aur sari websites aur  degar chezen tumhe notes k sath hi providekar donga uskay baad tumhe kisi ke zarorat nahi rahay ge…… aur phir maine uskekoi 5 hours ke class le jisme usko basic browsing aur degar chezen bata den…….

Phir usko notes waghaira provide kiye………….

Suno ainee……. Apna khayal rakhna… ab shayad ham kabhi namilen.. hamesha khush raho… usne bola……. Thank you sir…

Bas….. phir bojhal bojhal qadon se chal para sir jhuka kar…….sabkuch khatam raheel….. sab khatam….. meri mehnat, mera career……. Meri sarikoshishen………… sab khatam……..mera pyar chin gaya………  mai khatam ho gaya……tabah ho gaya……….. merakuch bhi mera na raha……. Dil se mohabat ke…… wo kisi aur ko chahte hai……. Demaghse soch kar business run kiya wahan se ab farigh kar diya gaya hon……..

Bahut roya mai….. both roya…… itna roya ka ansoo bhi khushkho gaye……. Apna ap aik apahij ke tarha mehsoos hota…….. jis se uske besakhi bhicheen le gaye ho………

Aur phir 2 din bad…

saath dil k chaley dil ko nahi roka humney,

jo na apna tha usey tuth k chaha humney,

aik dhokey mein kati umer hamari sari,

kya bataye kise paya kise khoya humney

…….. Suno Raheel… kya tumhara career aik chotay se flat taktha? Kya wo chota sa office tumse chin jaye to tum kuch nahi ho??? Wo lagan womehnat wo agay barhnay ke chahat?? Sab khatam ho gaye??? Lolz lanat ho tumpe……tum aram k aadi ho gaye ho….. 4 din tumhe inchargeship kya mil gaye…… tum nesamhaj liya khuwb puray ho gaye……. Aasman pe a gaye tum?????? Tumhe kya shakhonay laga tha k Allah apnay bandon ko 70 ma’on se ziada chahta hai? Aray pagalinsane…….. yeh tumper Allah ne karam kiya hai……. Tumne apni parwaz ko mehdoodkar liya tha……. Ab utho agay barho……. Ye dunya bahut bari hai……. Es dunya metumhe muqam banana hai……. Agay barhna hai……… tumhara career aik software houseper khatammm nahi hota…….

“Abhi ishq kay imtihan aur bhi hain

Sitaron se agay jahan aur bhi han”

……… suno Raheel…….. wo tumhara naseeb nahi tha……….. wo agartumhara naseeb hota to koi aur cheen nahi sakta tha……..Raheel ghalte tumharithi…… kisi aur k naseeeb ko tumne apna samjha….. kisi aur k naseeb se tumne pyarkiya…….

Hmmmmm……..Ainee ….. ainee ka matlab….. nigah hai…….to tumjisko chaho uske noor-ul-aain ban k raho yani uske ankhon ka noor ban k raho…….Allah tumhe hamesha khush rakhay…….. meri pehli mohabat ho tum…… wo mohabat jomery dil me hi rah gaye…….

Aur mai to professional hon……… J mer career meri life hai ……..mery nazdeek yeh pyar mohabat sab fazool se baatn hain mujhe to agay barhna hai……..mery liye bahut bara jahan hai……mery pass pyar mohabat jaisi chezon k lye timenahi hai………

No Emotions…….

No Love……

Be Professional……

Yeh thi aik love story……… ap sab k comments ka shiddat se intizar rahay ga

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