December 30th, 2009   

Aaj phir wo hi ehsas mujh me jaga hai, wo hi mashoor kun ahsas wo hi dilkash ahsas wo hi dilruba ahsas wo hi madhosh kar denay wala ahsas… wo us raat wala ahsas jab tum mery pass then mery sath then mery qareeb then … han wo hi waqt jab mai aur tum es duniya ko bhool gaye thay…. ham dono kahen gum thay….

Mai bas bay hosh o hawas tumhari ankhon ko dekh raha tha… un akhon ke chamak, un ankhon ke shararat, un aankhon ke teergi , un ankhon ke tadap…… mai bas kho sa gaya tha……. haan kho sa gaya tha tumhary chehray per bikhri hue us lutt per jo mujhe val val qatl kar rahi thi…. tumhari band hote hue madhosh se palkon me…. tumhary jism ke hararat me… tumhari ukharti hue narm aur garm se sanson me….

Suno jana us ehsas se barh kar kuch bhi nahi ho sakta hai …. han kuch bhi nahi…. mery nazdek wo ahsas hi sab kuch tha sab kuch hai…. wo dhadhkano ka bayqaboo ho jana…. wo kabhi dhemay to kabhi tez dil ka ajab raftar se dhadakna….. so itni sakht sardi me bhi paseena…

Tumhari baytabi… tumhari bay chaini …. mery dil , jism , rooh o jaan me aag se laga rahi thi mujhe baychain kar rahi thi mujhe bay qaboo sa kar rahi thi……. Mujhe hosh o hawas hi kab thay …

Tumhara yon bay qaboo ho jana tumhara yon mujh me kho jana … mery dil me khayal aata tha… dekho yeh to meri hai, yeh to mujh me kho gaye hai yeh to meri ho gaye hai sirf meri…. yeh meri jaan hai meri rooh hai mera sab kuch sab kuch tum han tum tum tum ho….

yeh jazba jitna taqatwar hota jata tha…… mujh me tum me simat janay ka tum me kho janay ka do roohon ka do jismon ka milan ho janay ka sama janay ka aik ho janay ka jazba utha hi  barh jata tha… aisay jaisay koi bay qaboo samandar ke tez sahilon ko chooti hue bay rabt se lehren… toofan sa dil me utha rahi thi tumhari soch tumhara khayal….

Please forgive me……. mujhe rooko mat … mujhe tooko mat… bas kuch na kaho kuch bhi na kaho… y eh khamoshi hi zuban hai….. bass pass ajao… bas simat jao….

Bas ankhon se baat karo bas qurbat se jazbon ko bayan karo… bas hont khamosh hon… dil ke zuban se guftugu ho….

Please forgive me…. mai tumhe pyar karna nahi chor sakta…. mai tumse door nahi ja sakta……

Yeh ahsas mujh me utar gaya hai kisi sartaan (Cancer) ke tarha k tum meri ho……. yeh ehsas mujhe tumse juda honay nahi deta …. lakh chahon to bhi tumko nazar andaz honay nahi deta….

Tumharay honton se mery honton ka milan…. es ahsas se barh kar kuch bhi nahi tumhari band hote hue ankhen… wo bay qaboo ho kar mujh me simat jana…. es ehsas se barh kar kuch bhi nahi …. bas tum meri banhon me ho mujh me samaye ho…. yeh ahsas yeh jazba meri aag ko bharkata hai… mujhe pagal kar deta hai…. tum mery jism o jaan me aik aag se laga jate ho…

Please forgive me….. mai tumse juda honay ka tasauvur bhi nahi kar sakta…. tum wo ho jo meri pehli chahat ho … jise maine barson se chaha hai…. jise barson se rab se manga hai…. tum wo ho jis se raushan hai kainat meri…. tum wo ho jo meri talash ho meri justuju ho… tum wo ho jo meri zindagi ho… tum wo ho jo meri wafa ho… tum wo ho jo mera maan ho mera arman ho… tum wo ho jo meri ankhon ka noor ho … tum wo ho jo mery dil ke dhadhkan ho… tum wo ho jo mery jeenay ka sabab ho… tum wo ho jo sirf sirf sirf meri chahat ho…tum wo ho jise maine sachay dil se chaha hai…

Please forgive me…. mai tumhe aur pyar nahi kar sakta … kyon kay jitna pyar mai karta hon wo mery pyar ke akhri hadh hai wo meri tadap ke akhri sarhad hai….

Please forgive me… Mai tumse juda ho nahi sakta… mai tumko chor kar jee nahi sakta… mai tumse pyar karna khatam nahi kar sakta… mai tumse mohabat kam nahi kar sakta …. please mujhe rooko mat… please mujhe tooko mat… tum sirf meri ho meri ho sirf aur sirf meri ho….

Please forgive me… mai bahut dard me hon… mai bahut karb me hon… Mujhe tumhari tumhari tumhari zaroorat hai… please mera yaqeen karo … mai kehta hon… mery alfaz hi mery jazbaat hain… en jazbaat ko samjho… please enke qadar karo…. please mera yaqeen karo harf harf jo tumse kaha hai sab sach kaha hai… Please forgive me… mai tumse door nahi ja sakta hon…

Aaj bhi yon hi mehsoos hota hai jaisay yeh wo hi waqt hai… han wo hi pehlay wala qat jab tum mery sath then mery pass then mery nazdeek then mery qareeb then… wo hi waqt jisme maine tumhara pehla lams paya tha… jisme tumhe cho kar…aik toofan ko apnay andar jagaya tha….  wo pehlay lams ka ahsas mera sarmaya hai… mera asasa hai mera hasil hai meri zindagi hai meri yaaden hain meri soch hai meri baaten hai….

Suno… jana … ham phir se paas aye han… ham phir se bahut nazdeek han…  mai tumhari sanson ko mehsoos kar sakta hon mai tumhary jism ke khushboo ko mehsoos kar sakta hon… mai tumhary honton ke narmi ko tumhari sanson ke garmi ko bahut nazdeek se mehsoos kar sakta hon….

haan haan haan mujhe yaad hai tumhara hansna tumhara chalna…

“Aisay hansti then tum

Aisay chalte then

Chand k jaisay chupti aur nikalte thi”

haan mujhe har wo raat yaad hai jo tumhary sang bitaye hai.. har wo baat yaad hai jo tumse ke hai… har jazba har mohabat har chahat ka ahsas tumse ke hue baaten haan mujhe sab yaad han… Please forgive me nahi bhool sakta wo kuch bhi wo meri zindagi ka hissa han…

Suno jana…. mai janta hon mujhe likhna nahi ata mujhe kehna nahi ata mujhe dil k jazbaat batana nahi ata… per jana… bahut dilse bahut chahat se bahut jazbaat se tumse bahut bahut bahut ziada pyar karta hon… mera jazbay bahut strong han jana…. mera har lafz lafz tumhe dua deta hai…… jaana…

Please forgive me… mai nahi rah sakta tum bin jana… please mat tadpao… bas paas a jao bahut paas a jao mujh me sama jao meri ho jao…….

Bas sirf aur sirf (Be My Valentine) Meray Mehboob Ban Jao.. Mera lafz lafz gawahi day ga k maine sirf tumse mohabat ke hai… meri har dhadhkan gawahi day ge k maine itnay salon me sirf tumhari hi chahat ke hai… mera har jazba tumhe bataye ga…… k ibadat ke tarha tumse mohabat ke hai….

Please forgive me cant’ live without you…

Love you truely madly deeply….

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