December 20th, 2009   

Aksar suna hai
“Dil kay koochay me Aabad Hamesha Rehte Hai
Pehli Mohabat Yaad Hamesha Rehte Hai”
Jante ho mujhe yeh sher pehlay bahut pasand ata tha…... mai sochta tha waqai ham pehli mohabat ko pehli chahat ko pehli dewangi ko pehlay nashay ko pehli khumari ko kabhi bhool hi nahi saktay…….

bahut arsay baad mujhe yeh ahsas hua…… yeh Pehli…. kya matlab? agar insan Pehli mohabat ko nahi bhool sakta to eska matlab hai phir Mohabat dosri bhi hote hoge, teesri bhi hote hoge….

phir meri es shair se jaisay jang ho gaye …..

mai to manta hon

“Bas Aik Mohabat Kaafi Hai…

Baqi Tamam Umar Izafi Hai…”

Mohabat jis se ho uske baaton se uske yaadon se nikalnay ka waqt milay to ham kuch aur sochen……. jante ho mery nazdek mohabat tumhari yaadon ko es tarha late hai jaisy roz sooraj aik naye subh ko lay kar ata hai…….

“Aisay chalte to wo aisay hansti thi

Chand k jaisay chupti aur nikalte thi

Sab se teri baaten tery baad karen gay

Tujhe yaad karen gay”

En yaadon se kon bahar nikal sakta hai jana….. itnay saalon me 1996 to 2009 december…. aaj tak un ankhon se bahar nahi nikal saka……. itni bay basi hai itni taklef hai…… k kahan se laon wo lafz jo tumhari ankhon ko bayan karen… dil roota hai……tumhara hansna tumhara chalna tumhara baaten karna tumhara mathay pe wo lut bikhra kar mujhe pagal kar jana…… tumharay lafz lafz qayamat… tumhari ankhon ke wo chamak…… tumhari ankhon ke wo gehraye ……. tumhari ankhon kay wo khuwab…….. tumhari ankhon me mai kho sa jata tha……

Tumhari ankhen……. tumhari ankhen us aik bhanwar jaisi han jis ke tezi me jis ke tughyani me jiskay toofan me …… mera dil…… kahen doob gaya hai…… kahen kho gaya hai……..

mai to aaj tak tumhari ankhon ge gehraye se bahar hi nahi nikal saka hon…… Tumhari ankhon se jana hai pyar kya hota hai…….. tumhari ankohn se jana hai koi kaisay dewna ban jata hai…. tumhari ankhon se dekha hai….. k jab wo chalak jayen to ….. kisi ka dil kaisay khoon k ansoo roota hai….. kisi ka dil kaisay kaisay kaisay toot jata hai…… tumhari ankhon se seekha hai…… yeh baybasi kya hai…… yeh tadap kya hai……..

aaj …. itnay saalon me ……. sirf tumhari tumhari tumhari ankhon ko hi bayan nahi kar saka….. nakam hon …… dard hai senay me taklef hai…… uljhan hai….. bay chaini hai……. aj tak tumhari ankhon ke khoobsorti se hi insaf nahi kar paya hon………

koi mery dil ko jaisay bha jaye…. koi mujhe kaisay pasand a jaye…… mai tumhari yaadon se tumhari baaton se tumhari soch se niklon to yeh dunya dekhon…….

Mery lye tum aisay hi ho jaisay aik tanhai pasand insan ko ….. kisi andhery kamray me zinagi ke soch mil gaye ho……

Janti ho jaisay en logo k lye business me closing ka month ata hai na….. jisme tamam business ka hisab kitab kar k yeh munafa ya khasara declare kartay han…….

Meri zindagi me tumhari yaadon ka khazana ……… December me khulta hai……… December me wo tamam yaaden mujhe jala dalte hain…..

wo…. wo hamara raat gaye bahar tehelna….. hathon me hath lye….. mery garm hathon me tumhara barf jaisa hath…… mujhe zinagi deta tha….. meri aag ko rahat deta tha…… aur aur…. tumhara wo itni thand me ……. bolna…… chalo …. mujhe cornetto khilao ab …….. aur mera wo hanstay hue ankhen phar k tumhe dekhna……. aur bolna……. aray pagal ho gaye ho kyaaaaa itni thand hai…… aur tumhe ……. ice crem…… uf kya larki ho…….. aray bemar ho jao ge pagli…….

aur tumhara wo ghusay se….. us shararat bharay ghusay se mujhe dekhna aur kehna……. nahi khilani to aisay hi bol do…… mujhe nahi pata mai to….. thand me ice cream bahut shauq se khati hon…….. phir hamara wo rat gaye teheltay hue ice cream khana………

Shayad kisi k lye yeh chote se baat ho ……. December ke wo raaten meri zindagi ka khazana hain…… wo tumhary honton pe lagi hue ice cream…….. wo tumhara honton pe zuban pherna…….. wo…. tumhari ankhon ke chamak…… wo tumhar tevar charha k mujhe dekhna aur bolna…… kya hai ice cream khao apni tumhe nahi pata mai aisay hi khati hon…… aur wo mera muskura dena………

December ke sard shamo’n me wo hamara samandar kinary ja k baith jana…. aur wahan garm garm mong phalyan (peanuts) khana…… wo lehron k shor ko sun’na wo thandi hawaon ka chalna…….. wo geeli rait per tumhary paon ke nishan….. jaisay mery dil per garh (emboss ho) gaye hon ……..

China town ke madham roshni me….. hamara baithna….. wo tumhara baytab ho kar bay chain ho kar bachon ke tarha soup peena…… wo mera tum ko dekhna ……… tumhari tevar charha lena……. uffff tumhara tevar to mujhe val val qatl kartay thay…

December ke wo barish…… yaad hai na…. jab car me song laga tha…..

“Pehli pehli baar hai aaj… pehli mulaqat hai … aaj to …. zindagi me dil lagi ka hai pehla pehla mauqa…… mil kay use kahon me kiya…. dil me to aik toofan basa…. jo jaan lay to hai aasan…… kehna mushkil”

Aur ham dono ka wo traffic jam me phans jana…… aur mera ye song gun gunana……. aur tumhara ankhen phar kar mujhe dekhna…… aur kehna….. tum kitnay bay suray hooooooo……… aur mera wo tumhe masoom shakal bana kar dekhna …… aur chup ho jana………

Aaj bhi us ganay k alfaz…… mujhe unhi yaadon me lay jatay han…… wo bhegti hue car……. wo tez barish…… wo tum aur mai……. wo sheshon pe jami dhundh…….. wo badalon ka garajna……. wo tumhara dar se khamosh khamosh sa baithna…….

Janti ho december ke yaaden mera khazana hain……… ye yaaden mujhe tumse juda honay nahi deten….. mujhe tumse bay khabar honay nahi deten…..

Janti ho…….. wo namazen parhna ….. wo duaen mangna….. wo duaon me bas tumhe sirf tumhe mangna…. tumhary kho janay ka dar hi to mujhe musalman rakhta tha…… tumhary janay k baad …….. maine qasam khaye thi….. k ab kuch nahi mangonga……

Mangon bhi kya ab? tumhe zindagi kehta tha……. jab zindagi hi na ho….. tumhari ankhon ko roshni kehta tha…… jab roshni hi na ho……. tumhe pyas kehta tha……. jab pyas se maut a jaye…….. to baqi hi kya reh jata hai zindgi me mangna ko ………..

Yaad hai tumhe jaan kehta tha……tumharay muskura uthnay se jaisay jaan ajati thi mujh me …… tumhari udasi se jaisay bayjaan ho jata tha mai…….

Janti ho waqt ne bahut sitam kiye….. maar diya mujhe…… zindagi se jaisay rang cheen liye……tum hi to mery lye sab kuch then…… tum hi to meri zindagi meri jaan mera juz e emaan….. meri mohabat….. meri chahat…. meri arzoo…. meri talab…… meri tamana…… meri khuwahish……. meri roshni….. meri zindagi…….. sab tum hi to then…… abb….. ab .. tu jo nahi hai……. to ……. kuch bhi nahi hai…….. kuch bhi nahi hai………..

Aaj …. Aaj waqt ne bahut se baaton per ……… jaisay mitti ka aik dabeez parda dal diya hai………. aur mai hon……. k mitti k us sehra me.. kisi pagal ke tarha ………. har taraf tumhe dhundh raha hon……….

December hai…… tumhara khayal hai…… tumhari baaten han….. tumhari yaaden han…….

December…… yaadon ka khazana hai……. december hai aur tumhara khayal hai…… aur sardiyon ke chand rat hai…. bas … jo nahi hai wo tera aik sath hai……

I Miss You…… I Mis You…… My Life….

Chahat des se chalay gaye mujhe tanha kar kay…..

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